Stepping Out In Faith

I remember when I was fearless. I was ready to do battle at the first sign of trouble. I didn't worry about what price I would pay for jumping without thinking. But after crashing on the rocks at the bottom of a few cliffs I've become very afraid of jumping. There was a time when there was little that I wouldn't do for my family and friends. It didn't matter if anyone ever reciprocated. I find it harder and harder to step out to help anyone including my own children. I want to trust in Christ. I want to trust in my family and friends. I want to be that fearless girl that I was so long ago. But, although I hate that feeling of quiet terror that sits in the pit of my stomack I'm going to try. I'm going to step out in faith that this is a lesson I need to learn. I'll just pretend that I'm okay while I pray for the faith I need. I want to be a person that I respect no matter what others think or how they act. I have to stop saying if this would happen than I could do that. Or, if they would not do that, I could do this. I have to be what I'm going to be no matter what the world is doing. Because altimately who I am is between me and God. And, noone knows how much time we have to bloom into a the princess, child of the King we were intended to be.