Starting The Journey Of my Life

I retired on December 30, 2008 from state service. I loved my job for a long time but the presurefutility of it all just became more than I wanted to deal with. I joined the department of Corrections when I had small children and needed some way to support them. I don't regret that decision but now my children have grown up. I am raising a grandchild who just turned eleven but I believe that it's time to find out who I am. It's been eight months since my retirement and I'm going back to work "Some place." I don't know what I want to be when I grow up. I don't know if I need to pick one thing or can I do several things that I have dreamed? I'm working on two books right now, meaning I am writing. That means I'm working on that dream. But, I want to be more. I want to become the open, loving, person I started out to be before the weight of this world began to harden my heart. I want my excitement for life back. I want to know who awe feels again. I want to become everything that I have the potential to be and find out who I grew up to be.